I miss you :)

I greatly miss someone right now. Someone dear and close to me. Someone whom i care for a lot. Someone I like. I miss this person, but circumstances says we can't talk nor see each other.

It's hard. Liking someone who is so close to you; but to keep the relationship, emotions must lie low and slow down for its own good. It's tough. It's insanely hard. Everyday seems to be too long to cope up with, but then, the thing that pushes me to go on, is that, this is happening for the better good.

Liking someone is beautiful; but going over the boundaries is dangerous. But fret not. There is still hope when boundaries are crossed. This is one solution. To kill that fire of being too close too soon. To kill the fire is to stop feeding the fire, to stop feeding the fire is to stop communication. It's hard, but it's doable.

I want to give up at times already, but one thing that is helping me the most is my God. . :) I pour out everything to Him and that helps me release. Telling God how much i miss him and all those things. Talking to God about my emotions, actually drew me closer to Him. :) I find it quite amazing. I never thought I'd be able to share these kinds of things to God. :)

Another thing that helps me not give up is. . I know he's doing his side as well. It's fair, we're fighting the same fight. For us to actually achieve this 'self-control' is to push through this no-communication for awhile. it's hard, it's tough, but it's the right thing to do.

Whoever said it'll be a blissful road? Doing the right thing always requires a lot of sacrifice, but then, the blessings are insanely great as well. :) I know that once we talk again, it'll be better and be handled in a more mature way - Keeping the relationship the way God intended it to be. I mean. . this relationship is here anyway, for God Himself. :) This relationship is here to build us both for the glory of God alone. :)

PS

About my last post? All those were lies. . I know i can have a good relationship with a man in the future. It's a lie that i don't have hope; and on top of it all, it doesn't suck to be me. . . :) God is helping me grow to become the lady He wants me to be, so that i may share my learnings to all those ladies who are confused as well. . :) My dreams are not shattered. I know that I will still get married in the future. I know myself. I cannot live alone. :) Only God knows what's best for me. :) I'm happy to be on the right track. :)